हिम्मत-ए-मर्दाँ मदद -ए- खुदा

मुद्दतोँ के बाद हम रूबरू हुए. ..
खुद मे छिपे इक इंसाँ से..
काबिज़ हुए थे हम पर कभी ..
वो मज़मे शैताँ के..
कह गया जन्नत का फरिश्ता मुझसे..
के ऐ मोमिन-ए-मौला..
कीमत-ए-मोहब्ब्त नही तय होती..
किसी मोहतर्मा की बेरूखी भरी निगाहोँ से..
वो दौलतो-शोहरत की राह हैँ टोहती..
बाकी ज़िंदगी बहा देती गमगीन आँसुओँ से..
पैदा होते नही तुझसे मुजाहिद..
किसी हसीन पर जाँ गँवाने ..
वो तो आते हैँ किसी बडे मकसद को अन्जाम तक पहुँचाने..
तो फिर क्योँ खफा है खुदसे
फौलाद मे ढले जिगर से
अपनी ताकत फिर से जगा..
अपनी पाक रूह को खुद से न जुदा..
कह गया एक नबी
जब हो मौजूद किसी शख्स मे
हिम्मत-ए-मर्दाँ,...
तो मिलती है ईनाम मे ,
मदद-ए-खुदा..

I've just blown the whistle...

Friends have been complaining for quite sometime now..

Time I had my say. Every one's been asking me why on earth have I not found someone to get hooked on to. I didn't know myself...
until now..
I m left with no choice but to blow the whistle out.
A guy like me is not the types who goes around chasing girls all over the town. And my orientation by far is straight, for anyone alleging, I have different taste(s) & preference(s).

My upbringing was rather rugged and I was designed to be a 9 or 21 Para Cdo, and never a loverboy. Goin' out with a girl would make me a weakling, which is what I thought then....

not now but..

I do have a few grievances against the forces of nature though.

The greatest irony that has occured is ( no, I won't ask you to hold your breath..!)

the first girl I actually liked is already going out with someone. ..!

Now where do I fit in.? Heavens haven't answered it as yet. Common sense says find someone else. But that actually doesn't make sense to me for real. How on earth (and in heaven maybe..) ,m I supposed to find a replacement for something that is not a machine or a commodity, but a living being that has a soul and a life.? Even if I did find someone so to say,would the replacement have all the traits and key qualitites that I have found after much searching.?

The warrior DNA provokes me to go the Alpha male way and show who the better male is, by the virtue of physical, mental and metaphysical (yup..I do have access..!!) brute force, the way its done in the animal kingdom. Reduce her lover boy to ashes..!!

Or I become the evil plotter and conceive a plan of deceit to finish the relationship and build my own on the grave of the first one.

So all in all, I have multiple options to chose from, but I won't.

No.. I m not preaching moral science in here. Nor do I expect God & Co. to pass over Ms "I have a crush on" to me by the Miracle clause.

The truth is..

I want the lady to be happy wherever she is, with whoever she is with. And the 'whoever' doesn't have to be me. However, I'd like to stand by her whenever she needs me in whichever way that might turn out to be. And its not for some philanthropic exercise, but my own satisfaction that I'd like to do this. And having experienced a past life, I don't mind waiting if God's bringing us together in the next one, with a marriage planned in heaven.

Also, I'd not like this to be a 'one sided-open ended' love story of some kind.

I'd like to let her know who the real me is.

I'd like to let her know 's someone out there who is willing to live, die and gladly, happily, and remorselessly willing to kill, behead,slaughter and sacrifice for her to all lengths in time and space.

For in dying that we are born to eternal life...

And in giving that we receive..

Not a bad deal at all God...

Maybe I don't mind thanking 'Him' for makin' someone worthwhile...

Atleast I have something to dream of...

And have faith...

for the next life, I m all set..!!

( Never has a man waited for death with so much passion and obsession...not that I know of..!!!)